“To whom shall we go?” rings true.

To say I was in the world has a certain connotation to it that would not present my story authentically. I have always been a Christian but there have been times I have dipped my toe in the water of what the world has to offer. Each time, it has left me scalded.

I wrestle with doubt every now and then. I also crave constant comfort, instant gratification and endless pleasure. When doubt and these worldly desires arise in my heart and I begin to entertain fantasises distant from what God has deemed good, I struggle to find a match for the good life I have found in Christ. In my fantasies, the ways of the world always ended in despair, loneliness and/or meaninglessness. Even when watching the movies I would think “That’s it? They’re happy and that’s where is ends?” It all PAILS in comparison next to the surpassing worth of knowing Jesus as my Lord. He has shown me where the good cookies are and I am never going back to the factory-made grocery store cookies.

You see, Jesus has spoilt the world for me. So whenever I have a crisis of faith and I want to drop my cross and run off, I’m forced to stop and think, “Where am I going to go?” Where can I go that is better than the life that I have found in Jesus?” And before it begins to sound like Jesus is the least worst option, I begin to remember the life I have found in Jesus. And I mean no offense to anyone not of the Christian faith but I refuse to apologize when I say that you have not started living if you have not found Jesus. I thought I was alive before, well this is living now. I thought I knew what color was until I saw more than black and white.

“Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life, and we have believed, and have come to know, that you are the Holy One of God.” (John 6:68-69). Knowing what I know, and with that knowledge informing my beliefs, I am relieved to say that I cannot go back. True life is found in Jesus whose claims to divinity proved to be true.